i'm coming slow but speeding...

Monday, December 08, 2008

i almost forgot i had this blog, but was reminded by a friend who seems to have spent a decent chunk of time reading it last night. thanks andy for reminding me of my former creative outlet. this brief and ambiguous update goes out to you, since, if you put the concerted effort in to read this, the least i can do is update it. a year is far too long.

after simply browsing a few of the more 'recent' entries, i realized how much my life has changed since those words were so frivolously thrown onto this site. april 15th, my elusive cut-off date for moving to california, has come and gone, seven months at this point. i'm no longer disillusioned into thinking i would have been happy with any of the people mentioned so ambiguosly. perhaps i'm jaded, perhaps i'm just realistic. who knows. and yet, so much has stayed the same. i'm still obsessed with work, still ailing in more ways than phyiscally. still have that overly optimistic point of view, if not a bit more weathered.

so, after reading a bit of my own life, i've realized something: i'm still the same person. but i'm growing up. and that, my friends, is truly petrifying. for those days of youthful naivity and unabashed emotional drive are not completely behind me, but they sure as hell haven't been as prevalent as they used to be.

in closing, i'll be writing a lot more now than i used to. if there were ever a time for a creative outlet, this would be it.

jules was lost in thought at 8:53 AM

Comments:

Well that gave me a warm fuzzy feeling inside, kind of like I had just eaten a kitten.

Seriously, though, glad to hear you'll be writing back in here again. I'm pretty sure you told me at some point, probably on OKC, that you shared the pipe dream of becoming a writer...so...get on that, I suppose. I'm sure I'm not the only one looking forward to it.

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Andrew Paulo : 4:23 AM