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name: julieanna
alias[es]: julie, jules, stretch, gazelle, elkie, tall girl, boss, string bean, mabel (or was it myrtle?..), jolly green giant
starsign: stereotypical sagittarius
birthday: november 29th.
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Friday, September 07, 2007
once again, i started doing one of those lame surveys, and it sent my mind into a tangent...
it was one of those silly 'complete 25 sentences about yourself' deals. here are the three most pertinent:
1. I've come to realize that my ex was: scared, depressed, and afraid of letting someone in [applicable for both of you...]
9. Love is: a beautiful, delicate thing that isnt too difficult to find if you let yourself, but almost impossible for me to keep a hold on.
10. Marriage is: probably not in the cards for me.
these answers (of course) got me thinking, which, as we all know too well is never a good thing for me...
it's time for a real love to present itself in my life. one that will challenge me, make me laugh till my sides hurt, make me feel beautiful. not sexy, or hot. but beautiful. someone that will show me that it's okay to let my guard down and let love in, and who isnt afraid to let his guard down either. one that time will stand still for.
i've found all those things... but i'm afraid of it. because i'm a coward when it comes down to it. i'm so petrified with all the "what if?"s that i dont let myself go and just enjoy the ride. i'm terrified of sacrificing other people's happinesses, friendships, whatever, for my own selfishness.... which sucks, to put it bluntly, because there's so much beauty that could come out of it... but so much ugliness, bitterness, and animosity could also be sprung forth from this. so, once again, i am forced to take the selfless route, forsaking a chance at something that could foster such happiness, simply because i'm too afraid to take that massive of risks.
this girl right here is not as brave and adventurous as everyone thinks she is.
jules was lost in thought at 11:46 AM
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