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name: julieanna
alias[es]: julie, jules, stretch, gazelle, elkie, tall girl, boss, string bean, mabel (or was it myrtle?..), jolly green giant
starsign: stereotypical sagittarius
birthday: november 29th.
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Thursday, December 18, 2008
ah, insomnia, how i loathe thee.
granted, without you, countless rantings would be lost to the subconscious of the dreaming world. but at least while dreaming, one can let those rantings be lost. while awake, in that awkward sleep-deprived state, there is nowhere for those thoughts to go but outward onto a page of some persuasion. typing is easier tonight.
i was perusing facebook and myspace, and noticed how almost a large percentage of my friends are happily involved in relationships, more so than i ever realized anyway. and i know this should not make me feel guilty, or any less worthy, or any less deserving, but this time through, it did.
alas, those single friends of mine out there, we can all commiserate that this time of year is particularly tough, what with holiday parties to bring no one to, snowy evenings to enjoy a mug of hot chocolate and cuddle up against yourself with, new year's eve kissing the random stranger next to you or a friend instead of someone special. it's moments like this i'm glad i work as much as i do. i don't think i could deal with yet another holiday season of being the ultimate 5th wheel if i had time to think about it.
and on the flip side, i still treasure my independence to a fault, that i worry delving into a relationship would simply be a recipe for disaster. i am just too selfish to be in one, what, with my constant thoughts of moving away, working obscene hours, it just doesn't fit into my life right now.
what a disheartening dilemma. sigh.
jules was lost in thought at 3:15 AM
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