i'm coming slow but speeding...

Friday, March 23, 2007

spring cleaning has begun. both in the physical and mental sense.

i looked around my head about a month ago, and realized there were some old cobwebs that needed removing. so, i've been doing just that with the help of a trained professional (and no, i dont mean a Merry Maid). and now that my head's been a bit more cleared, its time to start working on all the relationships i've broken and all the friends i've burned in the past few months. though i've pretty much driven everyone away, i owe two girls in particular apologies beyond the traditional "i'm sorry i suck at life and am a bad friend." Lindsay, Lauren: i'm sorry i havent been a friend to either of you. i'll be in touch with each of you soon, to either rectify what i can or leave yur lives on a slightly better note, i swear.

i looked around my life and realized there's some major work to be done there too. my room and car have become embodiments of what has been going on in my head. my body is... well... i know i'll catch flack froma lot of people on this one, but whatever... for me, i'm fat. i've gained a little belly. i have no muscular definition. you can tell that i've been depressed (*gasp* yes, i acknowledge what it is) because i've been over-indulging in food a bot too much, and not compensating with any physical exertion. so yeah, time for some change to be rolling in.

here's what i've figured out as the root(s) of the problem: work. i'm not going to bore with a dissertation on my psychological need for a stable working environment, and how my lack of one has directly and indirectly affected every other aspect of my life (that's the gist though).

oh, the other root of the problem. heh.
for personal reasons, i'll abstain from further comment. remember: julie is (for the most part) a very guarded person. let her keep a small tidbit of her personal life private. besides, there are some things that should be discussed in person with the individual they concern before being addressed here (if ever, for that matter). sorry kids.

so there it is.

this update has been brought to you by brad's request, who writes:

"Dear Julie...
Please update your blog, or else I think you've run off and joined the circus"

brad, thanks for your long-distance request.

jules was lost in thought at 12:03 AM

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