WARNING: stereotypical female rantings ahead

so i realized quite a while ago that i have wasted an immense amount of time on someone who clearly does not care about me anymore, but it just hit me tonight just how starkly different our relationship is now than it was several months ago.

this person may have sincerely cared about me like 3 months ago, but has, for all intents and purposes fallen off the face of the earth. i talk with his friends more than i talk with him. he used to call me almost every day when he got out of work. i think it's been a week since i talked to him on the phone, at the least, and the conversation was less than climatic. cute text messages? yeah, i'd get those. now i'd be lucky to get a 'hi'.

saying this is mildly disgruntling is a bit of an understatement. i put an exceptional amount of energy into this person. i risked a lot for this person, including my self-respect. i bent over backwords to fit into their world, and now i have nothing. maybe this person is just incredibly busy, because they do have their own life, but seriously, how long does it take to call someone just to tell them you are thinking about them? yeah, about 30 seconds. its just frustrating when you feel so close to someone only to realize that what you may mistook for a deep friendship now feels like nothing more than a joke, which is a horrible way to feel, but that about sums up my mentality right now.

of course, i know myself well enough to know that if this person calls, texts, or gets in touch with me, i'll be angry for likr 5 minutes that it took that long, then be happy. because when it comes right down to it, i am your stereotypical girl. and i hate that.

in brighter news, tomorrow is poker night at jonah's and i sincerely cannot fucking wait. i cant wait to school these boys. its gonna be a delicious warmup to ryan's huge poker touney on saturday :o)

jules was lost in thought at 1:05 AM

Comments:

Hey,

Sometimes people will come and go from your life; someone who was a big part can suddenly drift away. It happens. People get busy, and time passes quick for some people; sure, the lack of attention could be intentional, but it could also be a bunch of other things.

I guess the best way to find out is to reach out to them; if they don't reach back, or at least show an effort, then there you go. It sucks when the level of interest isn't the same for both sides. Don't feel upset, or bad, or anything. If someone intentionally doesn't take time for you, then they aren't worth you taking time for them; but the only way to know that is to put time in in the first place. All you can do is pick up and try again, either with the same person or someone new.

And getting over your anger and forgiving isn't always bad, if it's the little things; if you get over the big things that quickly, then it's the mentality that can lead to allowing emotional abuse and whatnot. But this doesn't sound like it's quite *that* bad.

Like I said, reach out first. And see if they reach back.

# posted by  Anonymous : 12:40 AM

 

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