i'm coming slow but speeding...

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

so here it is, once again.

lying in bed for longer than i can tolerate, i have surrendered to my computer chair in a vain attempt to whittle away at my restlessness. there is little happening in the world right now, or at least in my pathetic quadrant thereof. had it been a weekend, i might still be able to find a gaggle of insomniacs congregated somewhere on campus (most likely drinking away the night, as thats what UConn students seem to do best when they are bored). but, alas, it is a wednesday.

thoughts of sleeping through class have already infiltrated my brain.

maybe i should just drop out of college.

i feel as if i have wasted so much time already holed up in this university which won't even let me express my inner self. i am earning a degree in LIBERAL arts, but all the while feel as though the process is stifling me. my thoughts roll as rampant as the pacific coast on the california shoreline i see only in my imagination, but i must suppress my ideas for fear of being ostracized by my closed-minded peers. they just dont see the same things in the lines of poetry, in the stories of deceit, in the novels about craziness. they need to expand their minds beyond the scope of what they've been spoon-fed all these years by teachers. maybe i'm the close-minded one for thinking that they are close-minded...

so all i am left with is a question mark tattooed on my brain. to go to class or sleep away the day yet again? to sleep now or embrace insomnia for the night?

i think for now i'll embrace the happy medium... bed with a book. whittle away at the big decisions for tomorrow.

jules was lost in thought at 3:26 AM

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