i'm coming slow but speeding...

Thursday, July 28, 2005

... all my fears have cornered me here"

men are assholes, but that doesnt come as such a big shock anymore.

my tattoo finally itches.

my favorite manager at the tucc is being transfered to the worst restaurant in the company, much to his shagrin. granted, the game plan is that he'll be back once our GM goes on maternity leave, but that won't be until january. but that's only the game plan, and we all know how fickle corporate offices can be with holding to their plans.

my very personal life has become public knowledge to more people at work than i could have imagined.

my "friends" have turned against me, and are trying to drive me out of my job by making my life there miserable. guess i see where their loyalties lie. someone should have the gall to do it himself though, and not send his budies to do his dirty work for him. with the growing number of tribulations i've already faced under that roof since last may, it might not be too difficult to convince me to bow out now.

i am a horrible friend to my true friends, too.

i wish i brought dave with me to saratoga instead. it would have saved me a lot of heartache and drama.

i find myself losing it at work. i tweaked out two weekends ago, for what were good reasons inside my head, but were not cause enough to freak out and almost punch kristen with no provocation. my brain cannot wrap itself around menial restaurant work anymore. this job has been a massive part of my life for the better part of 4 years, and i can feel it slipping away from me.

my doctor's gonna have a conniption when he sees me tomorrow and finds i haven't done any therapy for my foot. whoops.

the insomnia's getting worse, as of late. at least i've figured out what it's correlated to... cough sean cough

i lost one of my rings on monday. i feel naked without my rings. the ring i happened to lose was also the first ring i had ever bought. 5 years ago. i'm sure you can imagine my reaction as soon as it slipped off in mike's pool in the pitch dark night. (on the plus side, aside from that incident, monday night was a much-needed night of revelry. running the beirut table for 6 games didnt hurt the night either :p. thanks for the great time, boys)

anyone else ever feel helpless?

sean, you're a coward and a louse, at best.
so why do i care so much?
"i'm looking for love this time
sounding hopeful, but it's making me cry"

"this catastrophic event, it wasn't meant to mean you harm
but to think there's nothing wrong is a problem"

jules was lost in thought at 3:02 AM

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